It’s my blog and I can delete old posts if I want to
I was in a mood earlier today, as in “I know somehow everything’s going to be ok but also I’m lonely and who’s going to hire me in THIS economy and I hate all of my hobbies and UGH”. It happens.
What got me out of the rut was walking to a coffee shop, getting a giant sugar cookie, and getting lost in a blogroll rabbit hole. Say that ten times fast.
By the end of it, I was in an infinitely better mood and inspired to get back to work here. Then I saw the first four post titles that were listed on my homepage and immediately knew things got started on the wrong foot.
The first post was from Nov 7, 2024:
I have no right to complain about Trump winning again
In 2016 I voted for Hillary, but I didn’t do anything else to help. I didn’t think I had to.
In 2020 I voted for Biden, but I didn’t do anything else to help. I didn’t think it would matter.
In 2024 I voted for Harris, but I didn’t do anything else to help. I don’t have an excuse yet.
I didn’t volunteer to canvas or phone bank. I didn’t call any relatives to hear their concerns or talk about the stakes. I didn’t even repost election content—literally the least I could have done. So while I want to scream at Democrats and punch an insurrectionist in the face, I have no right to place blame. My persistent inaction was just as childish and destructive as voting for Trump outright.
Of course politics are going to pop up in my blog now and then; I just realized I didn’t want the soul crushing disappointment of Trump winning again to be the first post.
The second now deleted post was about the slump between Christmas and New Years:
The end of year slump stretches to January 20th
In December I promised myself that once we got past New Year’s Day, I’d start focusing on things again, like finding a new job, writing more, and exercising to cancel out the 10 hours a day I spend sitting. But now that the first week of the year is almost over, I’m still having a hard time making plans and setting goals for 2025.
So far, the only thing I’ve promised myself is that I would write and post at least one thing a week.
This isn’t the piece that I wanted it to be, but I’d rather keep my promise and post something instead of giving myself an excuse to miss my deadline.
I’d actually be ok with this being first, but it still isn’t the best fit.
Instead, the grand opening is about quitting my job, which makes sense since this whole project was inspired by wanting to document getting my life together. And what better way to start a personal improvement blog than by admitting I quit my job with no savings or backup plan.
By the way, I still don’t have a job or backup plan, but I’m working on it. I finally got my first rejection email today, which actually makes me feel better about the job hunt. At least now I know things are moving along.